MOVE!! On the way to kindergarten centerby 주아나

This morning I pat, calm and put the bag on the back of my first son.

Since its mMondaythere are so many things to pack. Morning sleep blanket, walking out water bottle, story books......

"Sigh, when are we gonna climb all that."

The first son's kindergarten center is on a peak of a hill.

If I go alone it would take 15minute but with son it would take 25minute.

Since it is old fashioned with no car service, we hike the mountain as if we are hiking everyday.

Now that 2nd son came out, I need to hike, dragging these two boys.

When I came alll------the way down the steep downside, I reached to high point. My legs shake.

Now it is the start of hill. When I am about to go forward, the first starts to whine.

"Hold my hand~ Hold my hand~"

"Cant you see me? I am so tired. Holding your blanket, water bottle........ look, Im holding your brother too."
"Mom hold my hand~ hold my hand~"

I think my state is absolutely not visible in his eyes.

I barely pressed down my heart of wanting to snap his head, and puts all my load to the left hand.

"Here, grab mommy's right hand."

"Mom~ Hold it tight~ tightly hold it~"

In the same time, the second one starts to shakes my hands, struggling.

My anger filled up all the way to my mouth.

When my anger was about to come out, I just tightly closed my teeth and endured.

"oohokay. juost tiss tieme..." (Okay. Only this one time just this time.)

The first born that walks, being dragged from tiredness and second son that's keep shaking his hands in the air, all the stuff for the center, load of diapers for the second,...

to hike the mountain like this, makes my mind away.

When I have no strength while walking so loosen the hand, the first would spaz, telling me to grab tightly. It is hard to discern if I am hiking the mountain or the mountain's hiking me.

'He can walk alone but why is he doing that........ he can just hold onto my clothes'

'why cant he hold his water bottle, he just goes only his body alone. This surely is the sight of a servant in front of a master.'

When I walked with nothing in head, body and heart, all of sudden I see the highland.

"Hallelujah! I am alive!!!'

"Hey Joo-an, we are almost at the center. You can now go on your own without hand right?"

"No. I won't go to the center. No I won't go!!" The first one again flips me inside out.

'Ah, this surely mustn't be the Heaven testing me. no it isn't'

'He surely isnt trying to evaluate how much of my hot temper died.'

My head is filled with all sorts of thoughts.

'but......., even I am going mad when I only hold two kids but my Lord, how hard would it be for him.'

The Lord today walk on the path of salvation, holding the hands of 7 billion people.

But some are just standing not wanting to walk on the path of salvation, some are sitting down asking for piggy back, some are crying not wanting to go, some are crying yelling..., everyone that are like five, two years old, he needs to piggy back, hug, take hold of, calm them...., and they throw away their own cross and saying that they are going the path of salvation, the Lord has to put that heavy thing on his shoulder. Seven billions of them.

"Mom if you hold my hand it is tiring for you. So Ill hold your cloth instead."

"Mom I will hold the story books. Put them in my bag."

Even if it's like this, mom can walk on the path.

I think I can walk smiling whether it's a hill or sunny weather.

Let us become adults of faith like that for the Lord.

(Let us grow quickly quickly alot.)