Joyful effortby 도토리

"You are unattractive these days~"

This senctence my bridegroom said while he was so tired to point of not opening eyes.

I think I nag even more these days.

The more I become busy and tempered, I come to worry and complain more about my bridegroom.

Even a month ago, there was nothing wrong.

I and my bridegroom both lived diligently doing our own things and tried our best to value family. My son is really lovely back then and even now.

I just lived on ignoring those vague anxieties to not go on like this.

I have heard that how I am now determines how I will be in the future.

If I live in this way even after 10 or 20 years after I will be like this and maybe worse.

Although it is comfortable now, I do not want this to be my future state.

I started to struggle to change one by one setting plans.

Although I have not changed much, I am still putting efforts.

I try to think of God's heart who's looking at me by looking at my bridegroom.

A person like me is at a state of just 'struggling to be better' and I am nagging and worrying more looking at my bridegroom, but for God who knows so much and is looking at us from a such a high level... How frustrated and complicated his shimjung may be when he is looking at us?

God said that you can do it so don't give up with hope and work hard, so even today fighting!